I feel sick....

Sorry guyz i didnt upload alot of stuff lately
But yeaaa.. xD
Ifeel reallly bad telling my crush that i like him...
i think he's trying to prevent me now... Probably thats becos
i told him i like him logn long tme agoo....
Which is prettysad... My heart is crumbling down right now...
No one can mend it, except HIM :(
I hope he knows how i feel and make me feel better.
I dont mind if he doesnt like me right now... but i hope he does later on
I feel like mylife is going to come crashing down on me... and after that
i wont have anything i could keep myself...
I know lots and lots of girls who also like him.. which makes me even worse
in my situation... I feel like im at the end of the line waiting for him.. when all
the other girls come runnign for him, pushing and budging me off until im all
alone in the dark....
I hope that all isnt true.